This Year What I Have Learned.

26 Dec

During this holiday season I have thought seriously about how much do we really know somebody. May it be a close friend, boyfriend, girlfriend or even your own family?? Over this last year I have learned a lot about myself and how much I have overcome in my life.
There are only a few people who really truly know me and what I have gone through. People think they know you until you truly tell them who you really are. For most of my life I have lived as a person that would just please everyone but myself. I was meant to feel guilty and have even been punished for doing something for myself. But I have come to realize I was worked very hard to get to where I am today.
I recently learned that my mother really did not want my sister and myself that she wanted to be the center of attention and to this day still wants to be the center of attention. I have felt this for a very long time and even remember being a child in elementary school begging to be sent away for a military boarding school. I felt I would get more love and be appreciated at a military boarding school. For a young child this is not the ideal upbringing. Maybe that is why I never had a strong desire to have children of my own.
Than I have a family member who thinks I am a lesbian because I am over the age of 40 and don’t have a strong desire to be married and throw myself into my career. I was seeing somebody for almost two until recently and nobody even know that I was seeing this person.. It was not that I was ashamed of him it was I know my family and how they would criticize before even getting to know hime. But no need to worry about that now he was not man enough to tell me that we were finished dating or if that is what you called it. About the middle of September I received a email from him that was short and to the point telling me “he could not see me or talk to me anymore. Previous to this he was planning our winter vacation to Miami. He asked me what I wanted from him and I was simple and to the point. That I knew that he was going to be in my life for a long time. I did not want marriage or to live with him and he know my feelings about the above. This was after I had received text messages and voice mails at random times that I was stuck with him for life and that he loved me so much.

So this Christmas season don’t just look and someone and judge the book by the cover. You may not really know somebody because they have had a facade to cover up the true person that really lies beneath the outer layer.

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I’m not Carrie Bradshaw

23 Nov

I’m not Carrie Bradshaw.

I’m not Carrie Bradshaw

23 Nov

So my life started 42 years ago. In those years I have come a long way but still have a lot more to learn and experience.

So this blog is going to be anything that simply strikes my fancy. So it is not just one topic, it could be about the latest fashion in the streets of Washington D.C. and Baltimore, to something that was said or done or even something that I saw. You will just never know what will go on here.

You may not agree with what I have done or said but you won’t say I don’t keep you entertained.

So hopefully you will come back and see what I’m not Carrie is doing.